I am a liar.
I mean that in the same way that I say I am an American. A man. An overly hormonal sex-driven creature. Someone who likes alcohol.
What's the difference between lying and storytelling? Storytelling is simply...more creative. Also, it's primary purpose is to entertain.
Write what you know. Not exactly true for someone writing fiction. You write what you can make up in your mind based on what you know. Write what you can imagine. Write what lies you can craft that entertain.
I always imagined you'd rescue me from the depths of this cold abyss.
The Agent steps out from the cold, heavy abyss.
I'm lost in the dark.
What if you did something absolutely terrible and probably unforgivable and you knew that telling others would cause you more pain than you could live with? Knowing that revealing your damning secret will cause you to fall down a path of self-loathing, hatred from others and total isolation would you willingly embark upon that path? Would you be willing to effectively kill yourself?
Going to write out of here for a bit. I'm rambling.
I would find it hard to believe that revealing the secret would cause all people to hate you, perhaps some people but not all.
ReplyDeleteUnless we are speaking hypothetically then that is an pretty challenging question. The core question is your choice of poison, self-guilt/destruction or public execution.
I would like to think I would choose the latter, but I have a feeling that the first would be much 'easier' and if it would take me a long to time to get my self to the point where I could tell others.
Jesus shit I didn't actually expect anyone to intelligently respond to that!
ReplyDeleteSome of the music I'm listening to puts me into weird frames of mind. It doesn't help that I'm TRYING to be in a weird frame of mind to write something that isn't meaningless, cliched drivel.
Basically, what you're saying is that you can either choose to die the horrible Emo death of self-guilt or go for broke with the Drama Queen's Parade of Pain.
I wonder if a story about this decision would be worth pursuing?
Ha, this is where I butt in. There are a few situations I can think of where telling the truth about a "lie" would cause you to fall from grace so quickly. However, since you've narrowed it down with the opening statement about being an American man who drinks, lies, and has sex, I can only assume you cheated on someone. Hypothetically, that is. Whether you did or did not I don't really care, I'm going to use cheating as a springboard for my thoughts and the actual issue: whether or not to tell the truth.
ReplyDeleteShort answer (for the impatient): Sword of Damocles: yes.
Long one (for the bored): So here is the set up: you are at a banquet(=relationship). You're enjoying being waited on, pampered, great food, amazing wine, and you never want the party to end. Then you look up and notice you've got a situation (lets say you cheated on someone) dangling over your head like double edged sword hanging from the ceiling by a single thin hair called a lie. Eventually, that sword will come down and kill you. Here are your options: 1) Get up from the table (break up). Just walk away, and you've instantly removed the constant threat. 2) Wait for the hair to snap and kill you or 3) Get it over with and cut the string yourself. One way or another the relationship will probably end. If not it will be severely wounded, but then again the strongest bones in the body are the ones that have been broken. Personally, I would just get it over with. I couldn't bring myself to invent a reason to break it off with someone just because I didn't have the guts to tell them the truth, and I hate waiting. So I would fess up, take my beatings, lick my wounds, breathe in, breath out, repeat.
Once again, if I'm off the mark, just adapt what I said to suit whatever the case is. Its all hypothetical.
I would like to point out that the original post wasn't an exposition of something I did. It was an attempt to write. Most of this blog will be mumbling in an attempt to craft something more worthwhile on paper.
ReplyDeleteNot that I'm NOT a liar. But there is no specific thing I am speaking about.